Surrendering

[musicalluna]

Title: Surrendering
Fandom: Psych
Author: MusicalLuna
Rating: T
Characters/Pairings: Shawn/Juliet
Genre: Humor, Fluff, Romance
Warnings: None
Complete: Yes
Summary: Shawn Spencer was the type of man who, despite your carefully constructed boundaries, despite your sensible nature, despite your absolute opposition to the idea, you couldn’t help falling in love with, no matter how hard you tried not to.
A/N: XDDDDDDDD Hey look! I'm finally posting a new one! I've sort of been holding off because, well, it's number twenty, I wanted it to be AWESOME. But all of the ideas that the Oh So Gracious Windscryer has provided me with have run off and decided they want to be BIGGER than one-shots and that they want me to work for them so I haven't really been able to work any of them out between trying to write my VS eppie, trying to finish a freaking chapter story, and trying to find the appropriate ideas to make them Awesome. Yes, with a capital A.

Then this morning I woke up with this sentence in my mind THAT WOULD NOT GO AWAY. So I wrote it down. Then I thought of another one, and I wrote that down too, and THIRTEEN OF THE LONGEST SENTENCES EVER LATER, you get this little ditty. XDDD Which windscryer convinced me was Awesome enough to be number twenty.

So I hope you like!
Disclaimer: They're not mine. Probably better they aren't. 

 

 

Shawn Spencer was the type of man who, despite your carefully constructed boundaries, despite your sensible nature, despite your absolute opposition to the idea, you couldn’t help falling in love with, no matter how hard you tried not to. He knew how to wiggle his way under your skin and then, despite desperate attempts to get rid of him, set up camp and before you even knew what was happening, you loved him more strongly than you could have even imagined and your mind screamed warnings at you even more frantically, but there was nothing left you could do. His hold on you was overpowering and all you could do was wait and try to keep away, hoping to soften the blow when he had finally had enough of you. Because men as charming and funny and utterly electrifying as Shawn Spencer always had enough eventually.

And every time he moves too close, it tears you in two because on the one hand you want to throw yourself into him, damn the consequences, damn the broken heart, to close the small gaps between your mouths that seem to be growing in frequency and just let go. But then on the other hand…on the other hand, you want to push him away, scream and yell and cry and demand that he just leave you in peace because your heart can’t take this kind of torture for any longer. Deep inside and late at night, when he’s no longer around to see, it hurts, and that’s when you do cry, brokenly, into your pillow as you try to sleep, because you know that Shawn Spencer will never change and he will never be yours no matter how long and how hard you might wish it.

Then one day all it takes is a look, one look into those gray-green-brown-positively-enrapturing eyes when he happens upon you on a date with another man, trying to forget that that man’s brown hair isn’t carefully styled the right way, and that his crooked grin isn’t as cute without that poofy, adorable lower lip—and suddenly you realize that this agonizing power he holds over you doesn’t just go the one way. Because right now, behind that almost-convincing smile that keeps flashing onto his face, those eyes are hurt. And despite your head still screaming warnings at you, hope rises up and you smile at the shyster who you think just possibly might love you back and whisper, "This would be a lot less painful in Lego shoes." And before you turn away, you catch a glimpse of the grin you love the most, the hundred watt, devil-may-care-because-I’ve-got-this-one grin and inside you’re dancing because suddenly and without warning, Shawn Spencer has changed.

Or maybe…he never changed at all.